Thursday, July 15, 2004
Thursday, July 15, 2004
pLaYinG: numb
i've never felt as good as today these days.
my very first nationals. though i did not get into the finals, i got myself a pb and really enjoyed the race and did not get last.
this morning i woke up feeling queasey and thinking that no one loves me and sick and everything bad. my maid woke up late so i did not had my breakfast. i forgot my track shirt and had to tell my driver to bring it to school later for me. it seemed like so bad to start a day. went to school and the weather became bad. and i got my fucking period yesterday afternoon. i was feeling so so so so bad and angry and everything. i was like wishing it to come on friday or something, but nothing seems to go my way.
i'm so deprived of money and shopping. i miss shopping so much!!! i want to get earings and more clothes. my bikini craze is over and now i just want to shop for shoes and bags. gawd. i'm such a spendthrift.
okay, back to subject today.
i walked to the bball court and sat down. shan ling and hannie was there. later jun long announced that they can return back to class due to the stupid weather. later, we had a maths lesson. anna chan was so crazy. later i started to have period cramps and i left for the sick bay during CME lessons. it didn't seemed to work when i sat and rested for a moment. so the clerk at the office told me to get a hot drink in the canteen. it proved to have worked. my mood got brighter for a moment. then all the lessons..............................
during recess, conan was like trying to tell ppl that i'm having my period. he can fredrick was like cursing me on wednesday. that was so stupid, i really got my period. so he was like so proud that he jinxed me. what an idiot. after recess, we went back to class and got our stuff. ryn nv hug me. =(
later i went to get my track shirt from my driver. and waited and waited and later left the school. ying, calvin, conan, corrine and me waited for a cab for so bloody long. we went to the stadium and went to the usual place. ying, corrine and me went to change and i went back to sleep. i was so tired. at 1 somthing, we went to do warm up. and i saw florence. she was there to do her 100m race. =D
we went to report at 2.30. i felt like an idiot in the reporting room as it was my first time there. i felt so alone and queasy and nervous and scared. when i applied my counterpain, my hands were shaking. i was so nervous.
a few moments later, the gun went off and i was running. cut into lane 2 after the first red flag and open up. i was not thinking at all. i felt ao calm as i thought i'd never be. at the second round of 200m, i felt the heaviness in my legs. i heard clare's cheer and that really pushed me on. at the last 100m, i gave chase and really pushed on. i felt good. i was really happy i didn't got last. i walked up the stairs choughing really badly. like something's stucked in my throat. later i went to the toilet and vomitted. i was crying, i felt pain and happiness. i never had that feeling before.
later the others had their races. ying and corrine was strong. they did pretty well. calvin went off too fast but he was still good. the relays were the most exciting. they did so well. i'm so proud of the c boys! they got into the finals. i'm really suprised at steven and amira's feat. they caught up so much. it was really good. i could have just cried again - tears of joy.
after the races, conan and i had our physic test. mr lee is so lame, he wanted us to take the test in the stadium. i think my vector part it wrong. and i forgot the mircowave in the EMS. dammit.
wanted to have dinner with the track ppl. but my driver was already there. it's really the best day of my life.
ciao!!!
