Thursday, September 27, 2007
in the realm of dreams
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I have no idea why, but I am feeling emo-ish. Well, more like effusive. I feel lethargic and solitary. I spent my break reading, practicing on the piano, gymming, baking, watching telly and sleeping. It is nice not going to tutorials and rushing from meetings to lectures. It's almost like living a taitai's life, minus the kids and husband. Complete isolation.
So why am I feeling so out of place? I feel like my heart's not there, like it's being detached from something that I cannot really describe. No idea.
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I caught Stardust on Tuesday. I really enjoyed it. It is one of my favourite book- the story of how a boy became a man when he ventured into the unknown in search for a star. The movie was a bit different from the book, something which I hate when books make it to the big screens- think Harry Potter and Queen of the Damned. To divert little, the main focus of Queen of the Damed was the Story of the Red-Haired twins, and it was a brilliant story. I thought the film did not live up the to standard. But who cares right? Stuart Townsend looked hot in the movie.
Why? Stuart?
I loooooooooooved the scene when Yvaine told Tristan that she thought that perhaps she was in love with him. To quote her, "You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that makes watching the world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... what I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love Tristan? I never imagined I'd know if for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange. No fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."
That. Was the most romantic thing I have heard. It wasn't in the novel, and I thought it was the most beautiful part of the movie. Loves it.
I love Robert De Niro in the film as well. He looked so cute in drag, such an amicable and lovable pirate.
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Last night I dreamt that my secondary school friends were with me back in primary school. We were all three strawberries tall (Like how Smurfs are three apples tall). In the dream, I was BFF again with Xiao Han. It felt nice.
Prison Break season three premiered last night. I cannot help gushing how sizzling, orgasmic hot Wentworth Miller looked. Really, who can look THAT sexy with a shaven head.
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!I feel much better. :D
Thursday, September 20, 2007
yippie yay
Thursday, September 20, 2007
I was really delighted when I found out that I am on the vice chancellor's honour roll. I knew I did well for the last semester, but was not aware that I made it to the top 1 percent. Suddenly, I feel impelled to work harder and started thinking more about the possibilities. Of course, complacency kills and I would not let it get into my head and mess it up. With this extra incentive, I feel compelled to put in more effort into my studies. Dad was really glad when I told him, and of course, being the indulging father, he agreed to almost everything I asked (but he would not remember after a while). First, my mom promised me the MiuMiu Coffer bag, and now, my dad, the Balenciaga GH bag. Well, I would make sure they would not let it slip off their minds.
Anyway, I have been real busy with assignments. They are like a snow avalanche, driving me to madness and feeling unfit. After handing in my organisational behaviour assignment, I felt so much lighter and happier. To compensate the week of not exercising, I have been running for about 18 Km and approximately 30 to 40 miles of cycling in spin class for the past three to four days. I have gained quite a bit over the week when Kwan visited. Very minimal control over the food intake and it was pure indulgence. Beer, fish and chips, marmite chicken, full cream milk bubble tea. I think I've gained about 8 pounds over that week. I know, it's crazy and so unhealthy. But I've lost it all and back to usual, however, still going for about 6 more pounds.
I saw michelle over the weekend and oh god, she lost quite a bit of weight! So yes, I'm capable of it.
Enough of my incessant ranting about weight loss.
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I've been reading the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice, and enjoy it tremendously. Let's not start with Rice's literary prowess for we all know how godlike it is.
Vampires are such fascinating and enthralling creatures. They are gothic yet sensual. Terrifying yet romantic. Perhaps with immortality, nothing except companionship really matters to them. The protagonist of the series, Lestat is egoistic, brash yet alluring. However, I am more captivated by his fledging, Louis and the love that they share. Louis is the most 'humane' vampire of them all. His compassion for the human nature and reluctance to take in human blood makes him to enchanting. The conflict between his bloody thirst and conscience is tragic yet intriguing.
I guess we all yearn for everlasting love, and the thing with vampires is that they have all eternity to love and that it is absolutely riveting.
Okay, off for dinner.
