Wednesday, June 29, 2005
bloop blooop bloooop
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
School has been hectic these few days.
We have a few changes to our time table and teacher this semester. Mr Hisham(Hunk of the PE Unit) is taking my class for PE. PE lessons are going to be real fun. Now, the sec 4 and 5s are having extra curriculum almost everyday till 5 pm. The school's killing us.
To my surpirse, I didn't really feel very tired today. In school, I did not doze off during lesson like usual. Haha.. And during training this afternoon, I could run my 400m time trial in my best timing (79secs). I felt very comfortable running the 400m and I thought I could actually pushed more in the first 100m. But, oh well, there's another time trial the next training.
Mr Chow gave us practice in the MT oral. Goodness, the O Level MT Oral Exam is tomorrow. I only got to know it yesterday. I am so NOT prepared. haiz.
Oh, Aster came back! She looks good now, still as chatty as before. Hahah.. Ken is back too, I'm going to smack him for not buying me my rock candy. That ass.
ok, i got to go.
love ya!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
my goodness..
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Went to my brother's friendster account and was looking at the friends in his account. Especially those sec 1 girls, and I saw stuff like these:
depressiiOnn ; eu've gOnne ` tuhh otherr werlldd datt DOES NORTT need eu !!!
uniiQUE us ` dOnnLIKE ? farkkeOFF ~
wO menn derhh thOngg hhua ; ggu shhii [[ miie (("v")) eu ]] ' // -
uh`m nOrtt sadd uh`m jus UNSTABLLE ;
saddiistiic miie =( (and the picture shows a puffer-fishy look)
eu liiedd tuhh miie b4 eu go horrx ? mus nortt brreakk yr promiise kkaes ; mus cum backk * lOl;'x nebberrx wriite miie a long testiie andd e-maill * so fastt leave siia * hehes ((:
IIIIIIIIIIIIIallriightts reserrvedd ;
detaills * - eEeE OorRhHh eEeeE oOrHhH ~ !!bEeeE - BeeEee !! ssTtOoPPpp - ]]
___* myy lyffee iss wiith a mess upp ; editedd byy miie de ba0beii ah yii ; viian *___
refeLti0n leii * ] ] justt c0me backk fr0m t0wn takee derhss___*
ATTENTIION_______* stayy awayy fr0m miie * // ii amm eviiL\\ * d0LLyBitchh____*
Tell me, do you get what are they trying to say? those double 'I's, 'L's.. Oh my goodness..
i cannot stand that 'OooHHhhHhhh. ii'm sOo cuute' kind of attitude.
waa, myy eyee shoo biigg! ii taake piic frrooom thhee topp sHoo my eyee wiill bee berrrriii berrrrii biiig!! ii lubb MYYE BaOoBeeii laOo goong!!
Oh my goodness. i hope they are not all LIKE THAT.
revamp!!!!
i'm really tired. my parents moved the furniture in my room. they moved my poster bed and the vanity table from the 2nd storey to my room. when i came home from town this evening, i got down to work immediately. cleared all the MESS in my room. finally, i finished at 12.30am.
going to blog more tomorrow, i'm bushed.
bah
Thursday, June 23, 2005
what a B.O.R.I.N.G day.....
Thursday, June 23, 2005
wa lao, pam from super shopper was gourging on chocolates from Sin.i hate her la. so lucky.........
Shoe Parade:
Behold.. my babies....(not really)2.jpg)
say hi to my shoes!!!.jpg)
asics gel-1090.jpg)
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new nike air force. so pretty!! i love the fuchia part..jpg)
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my addidas spike shoes..jpg)
back(so dirty) lol...jpg)
bottom!.jpg)
new spikes!!! i'm changing the old ones..jpg)
DONE!!(notice the grass? was from the last training.)
and some spastic shots..jpg)
siao zha bo.jpg)
another retarded one. haha
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
lol, found this pic. it's so funny. it can say
-i'm going to kill you!!!
-wa i'm so tired......haiii
-dammit, run so slow
-i'm so angry la, don't talk to me.
-see what see??!! #@($&#^^& 
what if......
what if.....
- i drop dead after running?
- i get a serious illness?
- i get murdered and my body's dismembered?
nah, not so soon. just some random thoughts.
cherries
went down this morning at 8am. my maid told me that my briver is not coming. so i panicked. i was like 'omg, i'm so going to be late!!!' i ran up and asked my dad if he could fetch me to the stadium, he said he's really tired(came home at 4am). so i had to call a cab. thank god i got a cab in time. that half an hour was quite a frenzy. i had breakfast in the cab. cab fee's freaking expensive. $13.60. i reached there just in time, the others haven't started their warm up yet.
after doing our routine, we had our 400m time trial, 82 secs. i wished i had push more in the earlier part. started too slow. after that, the 800m runners did our workout(2 times of 600m pacing). had a time of 2.24 and 2.28 seconds. i didn't even thought that i could push to that extent. i hope i can be one of the 6 fastest losers(LOL) for the 800m in the nationals. let me go to the finals pleaseeeeeeeeeeee . we later did runs on the field with our shoes off. it's so comfortable! it's like running on the sand or on a bed. though my socks were wet, but i loved it! haha..
victoria JC were there this morning. i had my eye feasted on the guys' muscular legs and the girls' toned, long, lean legs. ahhhh.. i want legs like theirs!!!!
went for lunch with the sec 2 boys and zhi yung and alvin. we were like some gossipmongers. lol.
came home and wanted to tan, but the sun wasn't out for me. =( hopefully the sun would be out tomorrow.
i miss my brother! haven't seen him for 24 hours. so lonely at home. =(
ok, bye. i love you!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
fish and co baby!!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
hi!! woke up this morning at 10.30. last night, i dreamt that i was around the bookshop area with him, then on the field, the NCC people were doing some acrobat stuff. lol, later, i dreamt that i fell from 100 over storeys but i didn't die. later, i entered this realm where all the spirits were but there were security guards guarding it. lol, like some uncles outside the toilet.
i woke up and caryn messaged me. telling me what time to meet and everything. so i got myself prepared but was still late for rthe bus. so i left the house with my brother and driver. my brother is so nice to me lately i don't know why. i've talked to him about my problems and he was like 'whoever dares to hurt my sister will die.' i rolled my eyes and said 'whatever' but inside, i was like 'awwww..'
anyway, i met caryn at plaza singapura and walked to fish and co.
we had to wait for conan while having our food. we ordered seafood platter and fish and chips. it was so nice but so full. i felt quite pregnant after lunch.
later, we went to plaza sing and walked around. bought a cup of gelato to share. i love bailey. we moved on the orchard point, i wanted to do threading. by the time we left the building, it was about 4.50pm. tile was kinda running out so we went to wisma atria. conan came up with this stupid idea that we have to talk opposite today.
eh, today very cold hor? (actually meant: eh, it's so warm today!)
this pair of earings are so ugly!!! i don't want to buy!!!! (actually meant: this pair of earings are so pretty!! i so want to get it!!)
talk la!!! (shut up la!)
ok, so, we went to topshop. they've renovated the place and it's so big now! i love the accessories section and the shoes section. i LOVE the espadrille there!! their wedges are so pretty! i bought a necklace and a pair of a earings there. so pretty, so chunky, so me. haha.
we left topshop for borders at wheelock. style magazine is giving away free bikinis!! so i bought a copy with a red bikini. ahh..
at the traffic junction to shaw centre, we were stopped from crossing the road there as there's a premier for the movie initial d. JAY CHOU AND EDISON ARE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love jay chou.
wo ai zhou jie lun.
as conan had to go home soon, we went to far east plaza to take neoprint. our routine. after that, we bought subway and left town in a cab.
had a great day today. =)
i love you.
conan breastfeeding baby. haha
caryn's baby. so cute!
on the way home.....
us on the cab.. conan looks so retarded.
close up. ahhh.. heavenly
bought SUBWAY! my favourite cookie!!!
we went to take neoprints. hah, my outfit today. =)
wheelock place.
Our cup of gelato( baileys and green apple!!)
walking to wheelock place.. conan and ryn here
Monday, June 20, 2005
still thinking
Monday, June 20, 2005
it hurts a lot to be ignored, to be treated at part of the wallpaper.
went to school for chemistry this morning. brought my cookies to share with the others. i missed being in school, being in the company with people i treasure. chem was quite dry today. but still understood.
left early for training after mrs chen taught ryn, colina, aufar and me whatever she wanted to cover today.
the weather was so HOT today. we waited for a long time for the bus. and when we got on the bus, there were lots of people(students) on the bus. and there was this particular boy that caught our eyes. lol.......... he was SO funny. he's a secondary school boy. wearing his P.E attire( i think he was playing basketball), scrawny, short.. and he was sleeping on the bus. with his mouth partially opened, his head nodding. his head was like knocking on the window every 5 seconds, caryn and i were laughing our heads off. it was hilarious. we took a few pictures of him and a video. hahah..
colina, ryn and i went to foodcourt to have our buffet again. I was so full i felt so pregnant.
training was quite tiring today. we did our routines and later did a 'relay' run. we have to run 200m for 6 times while doing a 'race'. it was quite fun. after that, we did our program while the relay runners did their runs.
i'm quite tired today. going for fish and co and shopping with ryn. can't wait!! i want to get a pedicure.
goodnight.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
happy fathers' day!!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
i had tuition this morning. after that, i spent the afternoon trying out a recipe i found on the net. it's a recipe for double chocolate chips cookie!!! it turned out well!!! ahahahahaha.. went to sunbathe after that and waited for my parents to be ready to go for dinner while doing some work.
we went to chinatown for dinner. since it's fathers' day today, daddy decided on where to go. had great dinner and later went to queensway.
dad, bro and i bought shoes. lol, i think all of us spent about $500 plus there. i bought a nike air force. so pretty. heh, will post a picture of it soon. haha
my brother and i had fun on the car taking crap pictures. see the one that we WERE smooching. aha..
i'm tired, going to bed soon, there's chemistry and training tomorrow!
ciao
...
smoooooching!!!!!!ahaha
at home
fooling around
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O.O
Saturday, June 18, 2005
nationals 2005
Saturday, June 18, 2005
know why i'm blogging so much lately? cuz i'm so bored. so so bored.
went to check out the rjcat website on how to get qualified into the next round.
800m, 1500m, 3000m, 5000m, 2000m & 3000m Steeplechase:If necessary, heats shall be held to select 16 Finalists. If there are 2 heats, the first FIVE in each heat and the fastest 6 losers shall qualify. If there are 3 heats, the first Four in each heat and the fastest 4 losers shall qualify and if there are 4 heats, the first Three in each heat and the fastest 4 losers shall qualify. If there are 5 heats or more, the first Two in each heat and the fastest losers to make up the field of 16 finalists shall qualify.
6 fastest losers?
sound kinda sad. during last year's nationals, my time was about 3.15, this years's SAAA, my time was 3.05. hopefully, i can push to get a 2.55 or 2.59. i don't know if i can do it in the matter of a month. but i'll continue to go for all trainings and push all i can.
pray for me please..
Friday, June 17, 2005
Breathe Again
Friday, June 17, 2005
everytime i listen to this song, i just feeling like crying.
excatly how i feel now.
Breathe Again
Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way, now I just close my eyes and say
*I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more I'll breathe again
Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck it's a brand new start that might just work my way
No need to walk away, don't wanna live on life's replay
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn
so unexciting
just sent my application to PJC. just have to keep praying.
i checked out my lane for the 800m race. my race is the 1st heat for 800m B girls. lane 10 tag number 337. In CCK stadium.
the race is on 14th July. i'm feeling rather nervous now. i've got butterflies flying in my tummy.
less than a month to my race, i need to focus real hard now.
i am still on task, still doing my TYS, still revising, still going for trainings, still coughing, still smiling.
i don't think i'm That broken now.
but my world seem a little more quiet, a little more colourless, and a little more.. i don't know, pathetic?
i'm watching the news while typing this entry. the case about the dismembered lady. it's gruesome how the lady died. after investigation, the police found that she's a china born woman. the suspect is her supervisor, he'd be charged with muder tomorrow. it's scary how people are so desperate to get scott free after breaking the law. in this case, murder.
haha, i've mudered too. in my dreams. sometimes, i wake up in tears, and my heart just beating wildly in fear. i'm too hum ji to muder another human or an animal. except those yucky bugs like cockroaches and lizards. i HATE lizards.
recently, there's this big hoo ha about the sarongpartygirl. because she posed nude on HER blog. apparently, the news got onto the national newspaper and there were a couple of comments that i felt, pretty offending, especially the part which that man said that her parents did not provide her proper upbringing. i've read her entries and i felt that they were beautifully written. i don't think people should judge her just because she posed nude and posted it on her blog.
i don't know, we singaporeans are still quite conservative i guess.
goodnight
Thursday, June 16, 2005
without thinking
Thursday, June 16, 2005
he asked me if he would have any chance to be with me. i bluntly said no.
it's highly impossible for me to get into another relationship at this point of the time and i don't really click or i don't see myself having any special relationship except a friendship. and i still can't get over whatever i am supposed to.
i talked to Q, he told me ppl will just say he's not worth it, he doesn't deserve you.
i don't know really. no point whining about my failed relationship.
anyway, i went for a facial this noon. =) at least my skin would be happy.
after that, i went to NTUC and got choc chips and choc powder for hot choco.
i need choc to keep myself happy.
so i went home and wanted to watch a movie. i took Saw out and played it.
it's a M18 movie that i'm NOT supposed to be watching. =X heh heh heh
blood, vulgarities, sadistic stuff. being the sadist that i am, i'm kinda freaked out.
it's a SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK plot. freaking sick.
ok, gotta do work now.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
went training today. after resting for so long due to my infection, my runs are bad. my 800m time trial was so off. and my knee hurts like shit. not enough time already, nationals are like less than a month away. must train hard.
we went to have lunch after training. after that, we went to conan's house and watch lost. i had a great time making fun of him.
me:EEEEE!!! don't touch that! conan might have masturbated on it and semen might get all over it!!!!
conan: shut up la. *looks at gary* see, she's so retarded
*i rolled my eye*
me: GAY!
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me: CONAN'S UNDERWEAR ARE ALL FROM HUSH PUPPIES!!!
conan: SHUT UP LA! STUPID!!
me: GAY!!!!!
i took a bus and later walked home. when i walked up, those thoughts came back again.
'you are on your own now'
'no, i don't want'
face it, i'm probably going to be a spinster for the rest of my life.
picture this
Spinster WENY: hey kitty kitty kitty, come to mommy..
kitty: MEW
Spinster WENY: mommy loves you so much you know that?
kitty: MEW
Spinster WENY: aww, you love me too?
kitty: MEW
it's going to be real sad. talking to cats all day. haiz.
i want to get married to someone i love more than myself and someone who loves me more than himself.
have 4 kids and a house full of animals!
keep dreaming weny..
my kakis
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
a new begining
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
it's not easy. i woke up this morning, just lying around in bed thinking if i had a one last hug from him, the pain in me would probably lessen a little. at least there's a proper breakup and things between the both of us would not be awkward anymore. i still feel he's trying to get away from me. he's like trying to avoid me. that's quite cowardly i think. or he's just still not ready the face things. i don't know.
it's funny how we started and ended. i never thought he would actually be the one ending things like that. he has waited for about 2 years and finally, POOH, his dream sorta came true. and now that he has it, he just kissed it goodbye. oh no no no, he didn't kiss it goodbye, he just flicked it away like he always flick his best friend's ears.
it's cruel. really. i'll get over it.
okay.. ANYWAY.. i woke up this morning, erased all the unhappy thoughts in my head and looked forward to the day. i was supposed to go to bukit timah market to have lunch with ryn and colina. ok, i went there early, because i was kinda bored at home. (i studied history before leaving the house okay!!!!) i was wearing my new roxy shirt and funny, i wore my pink mini. i've not worn it for ages. heh heh heh. i walked and walked and to my surprise, the carpark was empty. then i realised the market was closed for cleaning. i thought and thought and thought and thought. is it possible to do what i want to do this morning? so i called, and i was greeted by a very hostile voice. a voice i was addicted to. and was disappointed to hear it so hostile.
he was so hostile, i guess he wouldn't want to see me at all i guess. so i just walked away from that block with my heart feeling real heavy.
i only wanted a hug.
ok, so i called colina, and asked where he was. that stupid gay was still at home. so i walked and walked and walked to conan's bus stop. and took a bus to meet my girlfriend. we went to watsons and just looked here and there. it was so cold in there. i spent some on WOMEN'S NECECITIES. okay, i didn't SPLURGE.
we had lunch and waited for the Gay to arrive. he came and we crapped about pushpa. she really tickled me. we wanted to rent movies to watch but conan was so hum ji, he didn't want to watch horror. haiz..
so they came to my place and we played with our collections of earings and other accessories. we later watched a movie ryn brought. it's a RA movie. lol, an american werewolf in paris. aiya, the only sex scene was when the guy grabbed his lover's boobs. the others are just blood and violence.
after it, we played with make up. it was so funny! conan is so stupid. ryn and i were washing our face in the toilet and he was like, 'NO, I'm NOT going to wear lipstick!' but when i went out, i saw him applying lipstick. so gay. omg omg omg..
after conan left, ryn and i did a mask.
Ryn: What are you thinking about?
Me: just drifting away...
so we began talking about our dreams. i told her i always dream about killing ppl and she always dream about mysterious men.
so we talked and talked.
she later left and i had tuition. my brother told me my parents are letting him have the master bedroom and they are moving to the highest bedroom. i was like WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT!!!!!! then they talked about fengshui, yada yada.... i don't really care.
conan said there's time trial tomorrow. HOW???? my legs are so weak now.
i'm quite afraid to be on my own. he was always there to keep an eye on me. always there to help me with my work and nag at me. i miss it now..
i can do it!
Monday, June 13, 2005
how???
Monday, June 13, 2005
i'm still not used to it honestly.
i still look at my phone 47394 times a day to check if i've got a new message.
the 47395th time, never him.
How do you know if your heart is broken?
- When you toss and turn in bed and still can't sleep.
- When you stay up all night just thinking of that heartless person
- You have cried till your eyes are sore
- You feel this horrible devastating heartache
- it's just so painful you can't think of anything else
- you lose interest even in your favourite plate of ao jian
- you don't even feel like doing anything at all
- you want to die and show him how miserable you are
- you feel so empty and so cold inside
- like a million of samurai swords stabbing your heart 24/7
- you won't even feel the pain if you fell down and got a deep cut
- when you cry before you sleep
- and cry again when you wake up
- when you lose appetite
- when you all you want is him
i don't know what have i done you know.
i don't know if i can ever find someone like that.
i don't know how am i ever going to go back to a time like that.
i don't know why and how.
i don't know how to recover from this.
i don't know if he will ever come back.
i don't know what have i done to deserve this.
i don't think i can't take this.
i don't know what to do anymore.
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
i think i'm going to die.
fell sick on sunday. i went to the doc on monday and he said i'm having a high fever and throat infection.
it was 38.2 degree C.
this morning, i felt worse, didn't have appetite to eat at all.
took my temperature and it was a freaking HIGH 39.4 degree C.
OMG, and track camp is tomorrow. i don't thing i'll be able to make it.
dammit, i've been looking forward to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm coughing so much and so badly i think i'm going to cough my lungs out.
gotta rest..
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